Adoption: The Waiting Game...
When I Wait, You Strengthen My Heart- Psalm 27:14
The boys’ passports have been applied for! I’m so happy about this I can hardly stand it. This is getting so real. And to be honest, I’m having a hard time concentrating. I’m a little jittery (okay… probably doesn’t help that I’m on my third cup of coffee), my mind is racing about all that I need to do.
Oh my gosh, the food prep. I’m going to need to get out of the rut of thinking cereal and peanut butter sandwiches are a perfectly acceptable supper idea. Their bedroom has become my ‘catch-all’ room for the past year and a half, because yes, we really felt like they’d be home long before now so we made space for them way back when. And I’m going to need to be able to cut their hair! Purchase hair clippers – add that to the list. What are they going to wear? And dear Lord help me figure out our laundry system. (I’m all ears if any of you have any great systems in place for large families!!) So. Real. And I love it. I really do. But…. GAH! Did I mention it’s SO. REAL?
There have been a few verses I’ve clung to throughout this process. In July it will have been FOUR YEARS since John met these two ‘Littles’. We’ve missed out on too much. They’ve missed out on too much. Adoption is hard. It really is. It breaks my heart that it's even necessary. But, I will tell you that it is worth it. Absolutely worth it.
This verse… Seriously!
And here’s a fun little tidbit, and one of the many ways that God has shown Himself present in this journey… In September of 2013 (Just 3 months after our paperwork officially arrived in Haiti), I really felt a strong desire to join a bible study group. A local church (not even my own) advertised one in our local paper and I just showed up. Turns out it was a 3-year study (we took the summers off). And these ladies… I tell ya, they have been terrific prayer warriors for us and for these boys. Constantly. And you know what? I’ve read the Bible more in the past three years than I ever have! When I am sad when I feel impatient when I am frustrated, and just downright MAD that this process takes SO long. When I feel especially grateful when I feel happy when I’m not really ‘feeling’ anything… I go to the Word. Maybe THAT is what I needed to learn through this. He knows what He’s doing and he’s got all the answers for us in that big, beautiful book if we just take the time to LEARN and KNOW it. And it’s kinda perfect that the study wraps up this May – at the same time we should be going to bring these boys home. A Godwink, ya think? Yes. I’m confident of this.
Much love to ALL of you who have been following our journey and offering prayers and encouraging words! I love you SO!
All my best,
Amanda
